Say Anything, But Say What You Mean

Lying.  One of the most destructive things that we can do.  Yet we all do it.  I had a little run in with some pretty detrimental lies the other night.  I am kind of upset about it still, even though it really shouldn't be as big of a deal as I am making it.

Why couldn't we just be truthful?  Why do we feel the need to filter and give half-truths and hold back our real selves?  Why can't people just accept us for who we are?  Maybe it is because we don't know who we are, and in the process of figuring it out, we are trying to self-preserve via façades and such.  But here's the deal:  I need truth and honesty.  I was being honest that night, and it was not well-received.  And then, in return, I got something that may or may not be true.  And what really bothers me is that if you care enough about someone, you want to be honest with them...that's why I was trying to be honest...but obviously, I don't quite make the cut on the other end.  I seriously need to extricate myself from these ridiculous situations that I keep getting into.

Types of lies:

• The jokey one where you end up with a hilarious prank afterwards
• The one where you preserve someone's blissful ignorance for just a little longer
• The outright one where you deny your true feelings on a matter
• The deceitful one where you purposely want to keep someone in the dark regarding a serious matter that should be brought to light
• The "I'm fine" one you tell your ex-boyfriend when you hang out post-breakup for the first time and find it to be pretty emotionally draining
• The unspoken one where you cover up your wrongful actions by just never talking about it or bringing it up

There are plenty more types of lies, but why delve into them?  There's millions of ways to deceive people, but I don't want to be like that.  I want honesty to reign supreme!  I want that to pay off someday!  I want people to appreciate my honesty and not throw it hatefully back in my face.  And remember the 13th Article of Faith...?  "We believe in being honest, true..."  And so I intend to be, regardless of the consequences.


This post's title came from this song:
Suspension by Mae