"What if I need you, baby? Would you even try to save me? Or would you find some lame excuse to never be true? What if I said I loved you? Would you be the one to run to? Or would you watch me walk away without a fight? What if I need you?"
So in the very beginning, I told the boy straight up that I was afraid of needing him too much. To which he replied, "Jess. Did you ever think that maybe I need you too?" Which I hadn't thought of. But now...now I find myself in this place where I need him too much, and he can't meet my needs, and I can't meet his, and the relationship is terminated anyways, so we can't even TRY to meet each other's needs anymore anyways. It's ultra ruhtarded. Too much need in one relationship, I guess. And the other lyrics are semi-applicable, but I don't want to write a novel about that right now. I just feel NEEDY today and I wish that there was someone I could turn to who could fulfill all the needs I'm experiencing right now! I need (or think I need): a hug, a passion-filled kiss, an assurance that I am beautiful and NOT a fatty-fatty-no-friends, a good long cuddle sesh, a night out on the town whilst looking incredibly glamorous, a long chat, and someone to hold me tight.
I admit it! I am missing the relationship! And the boy, too. I am in the post-breakup slump. The singles' slump. It won't last forever - because being single can be fun sometimes! - but it is here and has been lingering all day. BLAH!!! Gotta shake this!
This post's title came from this song:
What If by Ashley Tisdale
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