I Can Tell It's Gonna Be a Good Day

So a couple of weekends ago, I was drinking a Jones Soda and this was the message under the lid:

"A certain someone will appear who could enhance your life."

Yep.  Ever since then, I've been on the lookout for someone to come into my life and enhance it.  I guess that was a really passive approach, and since nothing was happening, I just stopped thinking about it.  Till I found the lid in my purse a couple days later and decided to display it at my desk at work with a couple of positive fortunes I've gotten from fortune cookies (they say "A thrilling time is in your immediate future" and "You will find good fortune in love.").  I decided there was no harm in putting these positive statements in a place where I will see them often.  If you see it and read it every day, you will start to believe it.  That's the theory, anyway.  So what the heck, right?

Since then, I have made two new AMAZING friends.  And although they are both girls, I DO feel like they have enhanced my life already with the limited amount that I know them.  It's been so refreshing to make new friends, although I was nervous at first.  But as soon as we started talking, the connection was there - we were on the same page, and we shared the same beliefs and viewpoints on so many things.  It was nuts how much I felt like these two girls were old friends, rather than new.  It was a blessing, and I think that the positive affirmation from Jones Soda helped me to stop feeling so sorry for myself and start looking for opportunities to connect with other people again.

Now, I just need to open myself up to the love connection possibilities. If I'm being honest, it truly scares me almost to death, the thought of putting my heart out there again. I am a sensitive individual and I feel things so deeply. Being hurt and allowing myself to truly feel the subsequent emotions has made me cautious where love is concerned. It's easier to NOT love others, to NOT let yourself get invested in a guy who may not return your ardor. But it's not fulfilling either, being on this torturous middle ground where I don't feel happy and don't feel sad.  Loving someone makes you feel elated. Being hurt makes you feel despondent and destroyed.  But putting myself in a bubble where I neither love nor feel pain makes me feel...stagnant and sterile.

I need to take a chance and have a little faith that good things will happen.


This post's title came from this song:
A Good Day (Morning Song) by Priscilla Ahn