In Your World, I Have No Meaning

I have to accept the following: boys pretty much do whatever they want.  And they don't get emotionally hung up about it.  If they want to text me, they will.  If they want to spend time with me, they will.  And if they don't want to be around me, they won't do it.  The end.  That sums up boys.

So.  Now that I have accepted that, I also have to accept that The Extrovert doesn't want to be with me, talk with me, or be in contact with me at all.  It is so easy to say it and act all nonchalant about that, but in all reality, I am DYING inside with the knowledge that I mean nothing to him and that he doesn't have any desire to keep in contact with me.  That is a hard pill to swallow.  I want to mean something to him.  I want him to miss me.  I want him to admire me and respect me and think I am funny, smart, kind, and worth his time.  But I'm left wanting.



This post's title came from this song:
Missing You by John Waite and Alyson Krauss

Baby, It's Fact

FACT: I want to be dating someone.  FURTHER FACT: I am not sure that I am ready to date someone right now, because I am kind of a selfish human.  Also, because I am not the ideal female (i.e. skinny, athletic, petite), the chances that I will be dating someone are SUPER slim...as slim as I wish I was.  BUT!  I thought it would be fun to make a list about me and dating (NOT MARRIAGE, OKAY?  DATING).  So voíla!

• I don't think I would mind dating a guy who had a tasteful tattoo.  Like a tribal tattoo or maybe the insides of his fingers tattooed with meaningful words or something.
• I would LOVE to date a white "bro" who had diamond studs in his ears.  I think that is so incredibly sexy!
• I really want to date a bro!  They are SOOOOO cool and hip and attractive (as a general rule).  Also, there is a really good chance they are long-boarders.  Which is sexy.  If you don't know what a bro is, please, observe, and note the tank tops, backwards hats, and short shorts.  They are kind of requisite, I think.  Also, bros are clean cut and well groomed, which is just such a turn on! 
  
• I jokingly tell people that I like younger men, but the truth of the matter is that I really want to date someone who is older than me.
• I like my guys to be blond.  That way, they don't look as hairy.  Dark leg and chest hair on a guy kind of grosses me out.
• I want to date a guy who is nice to me, but who isn't a pushover and who isn't afraid to take charge or be the boss.  I am a strong-willed woman, but that doesn't mean that I like to wear the pants in a relationship.  I get to be strong and bossy in almost every other aspect of my life, so when it comes to dating, I really want the guy to step up to the plate and take on the part of the aggressor.  Surprise!  I LIKE GENDER ROLES.  So sue me.  I want him to act like the stereotypical gender role cliché: a strong, confident, masculine and slightly bossy man.

This post's title came from this song:

Baby, It's Fact by HelloGoodbye