The Inside Lingo Had Me At "Hello"

Well, life keeps on going.  Time keeps on passing.  And the pain of the past becomes less fresh and more easily pushed away.  I'm learning to let go.  I'm not good at it, but I'm trying super hard to relinquish my grasp on the people that have already forgotten about me.  But how could they forget about me?  How could they push me out of their life so easily?  I just don't understand.  But despite my confusion and hurt, I'm attempting to move on and forget.

And sometimes it helps when your sister gives your phone number to a random guy you've never met before and he texts you immediately.  And then you spend the next few days in a continuing conversation with him, learning all about how he is INCREDIBLE and SUPER LEGIT.  But really.  This kid is amazing, but super modest and humble at the same time, which doesn't always happen.  Not many people can casually say they were in a band, they write, record and produce music, they studied recording engineering, and they gave it all up so that they could be less selfish and choose a path that would better benefit their future family.  But this guy did.  He did it so casually that I was totally out of my element.  He did it so coolly that  I'm entranced.  He had me at "hello"...or rather at the first text.  I mean, what guy do YOU know who would actually DO something with a random phone number they got from a random guy at church???  Exactly.  And he's so un-awkward about the whole thing that I'm even more impressed.  I, on the other hand, am acting like an awkward fool who maybe never graduated from Junior High.

The other night, our mutual friend threw a glow stick pool party.  At which we met in person.  And I was too afraid to talk much, because there is so much pressure from so many different people.  I want to be friendly and appear as interesting and amazing as he is.  I want to be friends and actually have things click.  And so we small talked a bit, but neither of us was as open, candid, or friendly as we are in text.  But I forged ahead and invited him to our party the next night.  He came and it ended up going great!  We were able to talk more that next evening and I introduced him to some of my friends (who are WAY more friendly than his friends, by the way!), and we just had a good, fun, relaxed time.

Now I'm stuck though, because we haven't seen each other for a while, but I want to keep in touch, I think.  I'm just not very good at texting conversations, but I think that has to be our mode of communication.  So I guess I had better figure this thing out before I mess it all up!


This post's title came from this song:
The Curse of Curves by Cute Is What We Aim For