Yeah! I'm Gonna Live Forever

"I feel alive!  Yeah!  I'm gonna live forever!"  Remember the days of being a teenager when you felt completely immortal and inconquerable?  I can't believe I was in that mindset only three short years ago!  Now I just like to wear buns in my hair, and glasses on my face (although mine don't have lenses, since I don't REALLY need glasses...) and embrace my impending old age.  Ha!  I do forget things quite frequently these days though...so either I'm old, or I just have too much going on in my life (and therefore in my brain) to keep track of it all.  Oh yeah.  Let's def go with the latter!  I don't want to be old!  I want to be youthful and vibrant and full of energy all the time!  I remember feeling like that in high school and in my freshman year of college.  But I feel like life is jading me and making a cynic of me...making me lose my enthusiasm for everything, because a lot of things in life are just smoke and mirrors.  FOR EXAMPLE: the girls at church (clearly, I'm talking about my old ward, because my new ward is AMAZING and I love the relief society in it).  They are totally unreal!  They think they are in a fashion show each Sunday.  They change their personalities and interests to match those of the boy they are most recently interested in.  They hide their true selves, showing only the bits that they think will lure the guys to them.  OH MY GOSH.  Hasn't anyone ever told these girls that the most attractive thing is to just be yourself, be content with yourself, and have confidence in yourself?  People can see through the façades, you know!  Or some people can.  Ok, but I'm clearly on a tangent here.  I was trying to make the point that I feel like an old maid lots of the time, when I'd rather be the youngster gallavanting around with the cute and stylish set of friends.  What is with this most recent group of incoming college freshman???  Why are they all so darn trendy and hip and cool?  I KNOW that my college freshman class was nowhere near as cool and put-together-looking as these fresh high school graduates!  Oh to be young and to actually care about being trendy!  I don't care about the trends anymore, so much as the looking nice.  Did you know that being trendy is not the same thing as being stylish?  You can watch pretty much any episode of "What Not To Wear" and they will tell you that.  So where was I going with this post?  Summation:  I feel old.  I envy the young girls and their enthusiasm for life.  I sometimes wish I was trendy, but then I remember that being trendy is not always as great as being stylish.  Wow.  I sound like a completely shallow airhead.  Judgers can judge.  Haters can hate.  I'm going to work on feeling inconquerable.


This post's title came from this song:
Barlights by Fun.